Today was my first day back at Weber State for my second semester. This time there was no one at my side. No Kevin. No Hannah. No Will. Just me and a sea of unfamiliar faces running around in the cold winter air. Independence looks a little more lonely than it once did.
Going back to school is good though. I’m so lucky to have the opportunity to go to such a great university. This first day just felt like the beginning of something new, something a little scary. The beginning of forever. I know I have some big decisions ahead of me, and it’s a little lonely watching my friends spread out further and further away to different schools, different states, even different countries. Within my Weber friends alone, Kevin will be leaving for Ohio in March, one day after Will leaves for Zimbabwe. As for the beautiful Hannah, she’s already two hours away attending Snow College.
I guess this is what growing up feels like. Everyone takes their own path, becoming their own person. New paths can be scary though, and leaving old ones can be even more scary. I understand now more than ever what Frost was talking about when he wrote “The Road Not Taken”.
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood, And sorry I could not travel both And be one traveler, long I stood And looked down one as far as I could To where it bent in the undergrowth; Then took the other, as just as fair, And having perhaps the better claim, Because it was grassy and wanted wear; Though as for that the passing there Had worn them really about the same, And both that morning equally lay In leaves no step had trodden black. Oh, I kept the first for another day! Yet knowing how way leads on to way, I doubted if I should ever come back. I shall be telling this with a sigh Somewhere ages and ages hence: Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-- I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference. -Robert Frost
The paths I’m choosing now WILL make all the difference. May I choose the best ones. I also want to thank Kevin for his decision to go on a mission and the example of good choices he is for me. I’m so proud of you Kev. You will be spectacular!
Today did feel like the beginning of forever for me, but I realized, every day should feel like that. Every day can be a new beginning. The beginning of something big and beautiful. My forever is definitely looking big and beautiful thanks to good friends, the best family, and a loving God.
P.S. Today were my hardest classes I’ll be taking this semester, but tomorrow….. Yoga and Poetry are my only classes!! Could a school schedule get any better? I submit that it cannot.
P.P.S. Today was my first day back at the Weber gym. I ran for about 50 minutes around the track planning to lift and hit arms pretty hard afterward, but I wasn’t feeling very good at all, so I stopped after the run. I’m not a huge fan of gyms in general, I would rather be out on the trails enjoying the fresh air, and Weber’s gym seems especially awful to me for some reason. It’s especially bad without Kevin to make my time there more enjoyable. So this semester I’m gonna have to try and get a little more creative and find some workouts I can motivate myself to do! At the moment the air quality is so bad and the weather is so cold the gym is probably the best place to exercise sadly, but at least it’s a gym and it’s free! I really want to make this year a healthy and active one. Wish me luck!
The Back Road 